So I guess I'm kind of fasting right now which I definitely don't mind. Saturday will be day 3.
We were taking pictures in class of Wednesday, and I saw the ones that I was accidentally in, and oh lord. You know how so many people with EDs talk about having those fat pictures that triggered their ED and/or made it worse? That is definitely what happened. I seriously haven't eaten since seeing them. I've never seen full pictures of myself since I avoid having pictures taken, so it's a total shock to actually see... Me I guess.
It's funny. I never bothered to make up back up plans or even seriously thought about being a doctor and university since I never thought I'd be alive to send in any kind of university application. Now that I'm at the point to be seriously thinking about what I want to do, I see why I didn't want to be alive at this age. It's too stressful to be an adult never mind an adult with mental health issues.
Still, I have to make it through this course with DDD (triple distinction) or higher to even get onto a science degree at the university in Leeds. That means I need to somehow keep up with all the work and that's not easy.
Hope everyone is well