Sunday, 11 March 2012

You've got to love friends

I'm ill. Again. I've caught whatever it is my friend has/had and it's not nice. My throat, chest and head feel like they are going to drop off haha. It's so dumb, but I realised that when R* last gave me whatever it was she had, I lost 8lbs, and it sort of made me happy to be ill. Like I said, so dumb.

We got told we have two exams coming up. Mock Maths and the real ISA one for Science. The Science one is going to be annoying because the experiment itself is around 2-2.5 hours. Then there is a 45 minute written part to it. Plus, we've never even been to the Science labs. Sounds stupid since we do science, but we have never had a Science lesson in our campus. We go to a different one which is really dumb. It has no technicians either so we've not even done an experiment. We seem to be expected to remember this shit from high school.

I also have my last English assessment on Thursday which is good. I need to get my mark back from my practice one on Wednesday though. I actually think it will be a 14 or 15 because I included everything I was meant to. Hopefully if it is, I'll just write a plan piggy backing on that paper and try to memorize half the stuff for the next day. I'm doing mine on a Shakespeare sonnet though (it's poetry) and Shakespeare is my thing, so I am definitely not worried about that. I considered doing it on a poem by Philip Larkin but I think I would have too much to write on that and not enough time to do so.

I've become addicted to tea lately. It used to be all about the coffee and now all I seem to drink is tea. Tea and water. I guess I am fitting the stereotype of a typical Brit, huh? I drink a lot of tea and talk about the weather a lot. It could be worse.

All that is on my mind lately is calories, weight and exams. Especially exams and all the stuff related to that. I keep think about after this year, my course next year and A levels. Like, medical school and things. It's so stressful to actually think about everything you need and all the non academic things. Why did I never want to do a simple course? I do think my back up thing to do will be English though if for some reason I can't get into medical school or decide I don't want to do it or get rejected more than once etc. I'd enjoy doing English if I couldn't study Medicine. Not as much as Medicine, but it would be alright I think. I wouldn't be unhappy spending 3 years doing that and an extra year doing a teaching thing... I never used to worry about these things. I'm not even the type of person to worry majorly about exams or grades or having a back up plan or... anything! Now it seems to be the main thing stressing me out. Adulthood is a pain in the bloody arse. All this responsibility and things.

I hate not weighing myself on the weekends. It's actually really annoying to not know the numbers from Friday until Tuesday. Motivating, but I'd love to know the numbers. It's nice to be losing again though and seeing the numbers get smaller each day. I keep setting mini goals to reach. If I can reach one of my goals by or before the 30th, I shall get my nose pierced. I'm determined to get it pierced because I always say I will but I never do.

Take care


  1. I'm really congested too. I hate it but I would take it over being fully sick. I hope you feel better soon.

    I understand what you mean about suddenly feeling stressed about everything. Things were easier when you didn't have to think about them so much. Now it's all you here. "You need to do this and this before you can do this..." blah blah.

    You should finally get your nose pierced though. xxx

  2. I'm sick too sweetie! right now it's 5.30 in the morning and I'm up alone with fever..
    feel better and good luck with your exams!

  3. I've started limiting myself to only one weigh-in a week. It's nerve-wracking! School sounds stressful, but you also sound like an incredibly motivated person. Best of luck on your exams.

  4. Hope you feel better soon! I nice cup of hot tea always helps :)
    Hihi but i kinda know what you feel when you say you dont really mind :P Because you loose weight when your ill.. I do too ;)! I never eat anything when im sick..
    Good luck with all your exams and everything!
    Love! Anna

  5. Oh, being sick sucks.. I hope you feel better soon <3

  6. I hope that you feel better luv. Being sick can really ruin your day. I'm sure the stress doesn't help, have you tried looking into different teas, there's a lot of herbs out there that make great tea and help with stress. Stay safe <3

  7. Gotta love a bit of Philip Larkin - 'This Be the Verse' is definitely a favourite, haha.
    Good luck with your exams and GET WELL SOON! x