I'm back. I decided I'd post on my birthday. I'm in a slightly better state of mind right now to when I last posted.
I wrote another letter to my doctor a few days ago (a week ago?) whilst doing Chemistry work. I asked for more help. A lot more help. I likened it to asking a proud man to beg haha. It was a true simile though. I hate asking for help, but sometimes you just have to suck it up and ask for it.
So I sucked it up. Posted the letter. Then got drunk.
But I wrote the letter. I sucked it up and asked for a lot more help. I was honest about shit I am not even completely honest about on here. I was/am proud of me. Go me! I admitted defeat really. Sort of.
But forget all that lol. One is now 19 and getting old. Where has the last year gone? Apart from being wasted on the ED and all that. Still, I don't feel I have been 18 for a year. It's kind of crazy getting older. On one hand I feel older than 19, but on the other hand, I feel so much younger. I feel like I am stuck at 14-15. Maybe it's because things going on now are similar to what I was going through back then.
I'm going to try and enjoy my birthday though. A nice excuse to go out with friends and take a break from revision.
I hope you are all okay and I'll be checking out blogs in ze morning. I feel I have missed out on so much of your lives lol.