Wednesday, 30 March 2011


So I am suddenly not following any blogs? Where have they all gone? I swear I used to follow at least 150 blogs. :/ Hopefully they all come back.
I'm in a really weird mood tonight. Wait it is 3am, so this morning.
I want to pack up and start again somewhere else.
Somewhere nobody knows me.
Somewhere different.
I'm currently listening to Mika - Intoxicated on repeat. It might not be helping my mood that I can relate to it, but it's a pretty song.
The blogs came back, but I give up with commenting on them.
I'll do some more tomorrow.
I have no idea what point I wanted to put across with this post.
Oh, and I will do that blogger award thing in the morning when I make more sense.
Take care. x

Monday, 28 March 2011

Good news

  1. I feel sober this morning. :] Always good to start Monday sober haha. This time yesterday I was drinking... I can't even recall everything back to you lol.
  2. I haven't slept. I don't even feel tired which sometimes I do. I suspect today could be a long one though. Thank goodness I am out of college at noon. I don't think I could do a full day and stay until after 4pm.
  3. So onto ED sort of things. I started the ABC 7 days ago. I'm finding it pretty easy. I can't shake this 'fake' feeling I have though. I've never done a diet before and it feels so weird. It's not really any different to regular restricting, but something feels really weird. I suspect I will eventually get over it.
  4. If this can get me back down to any weight other than what I last weighed in at, then I will be okay. I still cannot believe I weighed myself and was 3.8lbs over my heighest ever weight. That really, really shocked me. I have never seen 152.8lbs on my scale before. Funnily enough the batteries in my scale died the day I weighed myself lol. How mean!
  1. I should be getting a shower right now and getting ready for college. It's nearly 6am. "/
  2. PS Ignore the numbers. It won't edit properly. :
  3. Take care xxxxx

Sunday, 20 March 2011

Last Night Was... Fun?

A few of my friends came over, the usual gang really, and we wasn't aiming to get drunk... It sort of just happened haha. RIP to my vodka though. How does one wee person drink a litre of it without noticing? Plus I found adding Fanta to Bacardi makes it actually taste nice. I am not a huge fan of adding coke to spirits. We was looking for the moon too. Not through drink I swear, the news said it was going to be bigger last night. We didn't find it and had to give in. =[ It was nice to have fun with my friends though. I actually enjoyed myself. Like, you should be so shocked right now! ;] We are doing it again tonight and it sounds like, stupid, and it sort of is, but... It's Monday tomorrow. I spend most of my time on a laptop at college on a Monday. Hopefully. (I relapsed twice in just over a week with cutting. First time in a year. "/ But it is okay since I don't intend on doing it again. Or at least not on my arms because it is highly retarded to do when you can't wear jackets in class.) I didn't binge yesterday. That was amazing. Even though I had my friends here and was drinking, I didn't go over the 1000 calorie mark at all. Compared to recent days, that is on scale with victory in WW2. So I am celebrating with a soy latte in Starbucks and making the most of their Wi-fucking-Fi. Oh my God! How annoying is it when someone with no damn manners sits near you? Put your stupid hand over your mouth when coughing instead of stuffing your face. And cough in my direction again and I am going to ram that muffin down your throat! I do not care for your puffing and panting, your lack of manners and your constant need to stuff your face and deafen me with the noises. I was going to write about this job, my aunty, college... A lot of other things, but I feel if I don't leave Starbucks I might just stab the crank near me in the eye with a spoon. Take Care xoxox