Monday, 30 August 2010


So PT is down which is pretty annoying since Zander/James(?) keeps saying it's okay for the next 5 years. Nope not the most important thing in the world but probably the most imprtant thing for me today haha. I want to reply to my comments! That's all I wanted to say. It's such a boring day and I've barely done a thing. I think I am going to reply to David. I swear when I break up with a guy I spend more time with them. It's strange. I did so with Andy too. Then again I worked with him. Hmm and David... Maybe next time I should go for a guy who works elsewhere? Might work out then. Just a thought haha. ^^ Very random! Right I have my phone and water. Off to read everyones blogs <3 M L xoXox

Friday, 27 August 2010

I ache

I really do. I had forgotten how jumping jacks and crap make you hurt lol. Saying that I have not done jumping jacks in like a year or something. But I am going to go for a run in the morning and gym a bit later on whilst I wait for my phonecall. I can just imagine I will be on the treadmill and get the call then, fall off and want to cry haha xD It could happen lol. This week is going pretty good actually. It's funny how it always does once I have nobody bugging me about stuff. But from Sunday night I have gone from 136lbs (yuck. Tar Ad!) to 129.8lbs yesterday. Though it probably has something to do with being able to fast. And be lazy haha. Ah well. If I break the 9st range (126lbs... hang on why do I always convert this? People obviously know how to themselves o.O) by Sunday I'll be okay. Though I am babysitting tomorrow night and Saturday night. Oh today I got my blood test results. I got these tablets for all this stuff that was either too low or too high (whoops?) Only problem is it's take 2 a day WITH a meal. That doesn't work well for me. Gah doctors right? I need to stop writing. I need to pee (tmi) plus get things together for tomorrow. M L xoXox

Tuesday, 24 August 2010


My brain is not functioning to come up with something creative. Today has been pretty blah and it's only 11am!! My God things are starting to get bad before noon. Something is definitely wrong with that. But with 4 hours sleep, pouring rain and a poorly cat was anything meant to go right? Oh and thanks for the comments. But if you think I am a camera whore, you should meet my cat! She hears you playing with the phone she rolls over and starts posing :L On the plus side my cousin left my place today. Like whoo lol. After we went to the vets and they said Sarah's (my other auntie) cat was too poorly for them to do anything (Poor Mogwai D': ) me and adam came back to mine and he took his stuff to his friends. Like I am glad to be able to walk around my house in my underwear haha. And fall asleep on the sofa. And work out and eat whatever. Okay okay very random lol.
On a sidenote: How the heck are Nicoles legs so long when she's so short? I think the publisher stretched this picture :P I mean Victoria is semi tall I think so she has an excuse at least :L
XxXooR.I.P MogwaiooXxX

Monday, 23 August 2010

I took these today and felt kind of pretty...

So I just had to brag because you know that's what all the cool people do xD
But today has been good. I haven't eaten so far and it's nearly half past 6 in the evening.
I actually did exercise too. shocker hey?
So yeah. My day for once hasn't totally sucked :P
Okay edit: I may seem like a camera whore and I am ;) but I did put 79 on Facebook so 14 isn't that many really...

Friday, 20 August 2010

Ever noticed...

How when you are around people you care about and dare I say it love you'll do anything to be "normal"? That is what I have been doing since... I can't even think when my cousin came o.O I think nearly a week or so. Yeah a week today. Gosh my brain is fried. I have actually gone from blah might as well put it. I don't do numbers on these things but what the hell. Not going to do it for another month or so anyway. I went from 9st 3lbs (129lbs) on Friday/Saturday to 9st 8lbs in a week. Dear Adam I love you but just can't handle eating with you. On another note though my friend did ask if we should form a group and go on holiday next year. Probably Italy or something since it isn't majorly expensive. I actually don't hold much hope out for going tbh with you. I'm going to keep in mind that it is the thought that counts. Saying that I need a new passport for next year anyway. And a provisional driving license so I can start to learn how to drive :) Fun fun! Anyway today hasn't been too badly. By this past week or two's standards anyway. M L xoXox

Monday, 16 August 2010

I've sort of neglected this thing

And yet again it's coming up to an important point in this month at least so that means I'll be busy. Again. But this weekend was pretty great. Tons of alcohol, outta Leeds, seen my cousins... all is good. A weekend away from PrettyThin too. That was actually great. My cousin is staying with me for a while actually. He's about 12 years older than me and suprisingly not a bad looking guy haha. His dad and mum aren't exactly... anyway enough of me judging my family on looks ;) I don't know what else to put so I should probably leave it at that. Plus I have to go and wash this hair conditioning mask off since I ahve had it on since I dyed it earlier today o.O haha. M L xoXox

Wednesday, 11 August 2010

Subway and not 1 but 10 buses, 4 trains and 1 taxi

Yes you heard that right! My day was spent on freaking public transport mainly. How fancy right? The trains? I love. The buses? Whole different area. They get too warm, there is always and I mean always somebody with BO on there and well it takes too long. Maybe not in a small town but Leeds is a smaller version of New York and London but with the same traffic. And kids... lets not get started on them terrors. So I went into town with a few friends. Actually it started off as one and then we met a few others. Anyhow. After like an hour of meeting up with people they decided to go to Subway (yay coffee!) and order whatever they wanted. I wasn't paying much attention tbh. I was chatting away with somebody I hadn't seen in a while. My 'friend' then decided randomly and loudly to point out I didn't order a sandwich. I wanted to scream "FYI none of your freaking business dipsy (telletubby refrence haha)" but I just said not hungry and turned around. I got the "You haven't eaten all day" thing thrown at me. I should have had a bitch fit or something but I simpily pointed out I'd only been with them an hour so unless they have all been hiding in my closet they wouldn't have any idea haha. My friend laughed out loud and not long after that I left them lot and hung with other people. Don't you just hate it when people do that though. It's like ugh. Shut up people y'know? I've never got why people take notice. They don't when you are eating a ton or something though. Grr. It was a good day though. A bit bummed I screwed my fast up though. Nearly day 4 too but I'll start over tomorrow. It wasn't anything bad just a few crisps. Still... Party on Saturday night "/ :) Managed to get out of church on Sunday though which is fantastic!! =D Not too sure about Sunday night though. I don't mean church but I think I am expected to go to another party. We'll see when it gets to Sunday... I should probably attempt to go to bed. I have another long day tomorrow. It's hard being in demand ;) Oh and tar Sarah for that last comment :) M L xoXox

Tuesday, 10 August 2010

Hate is such a strong word...

I hate how you think you can stay out of my life for a year then come crawling back because things are going bad for you. I hate how you think I should help you out. I hate how you make me feel like shit. I hate how you think you know me. I hate how you think. But most of all I HATE you. You make me want to punch the wall simply because your bullshit is too much to handle. Like in all honesty if what you said tomorrow doesn't happen stay the fuck away from me or I will get you completely banned from my area. Ugh I swear to freaking God you are one of the triggers behind my Eating Disorder and the rest of the crap. I think I am going to go to bed before I am tempted to do something I regret. and I wish you had taken your f'ing crisps with you. Day 3 of fast when I wake up. Waking up... why the f is that an option? M L xoXox

Monday, 9 August 2010

So who really cares?

That is what I am currently asking myself. It's not a bunch of people on the internet who don't know me. It's not the people I am surrounded by. It's definitely not me. Can you honestly say you care? Because I really can't. I might say I do but hand on heart I don't most of the time. I think I gave up on that a long time ago. I really don't care when you sit there and text me or call me and complain. I don't care when your facebook status is on some crappy teenage little problem. I don't care what you say or do to me anymore. I stopped long ago. There is a reason nobody knows who I really am. But anyway. Things on PT are a little... suspisious I think the word is. Funny how when one thing changes an old one comes back "/ It's just blah. A few of the people on there I have already planned their murders. Now only have to get to them bahaha. I am joking of course lol. ;) It is pretty fucked up as a site though. Only just the afternoon. Bah speed up? M L xoXox

Saturday, 7 August 2010


So I am in quite a good mood. Don't ask why because I have no idea. I actually went to a few blogs and commented. Normally I only read them. But I am feeling quite motivated and regular. Better than these past few days. PT is actually annoying me a bit these days. It's all this and that. The same sh*t that gets posted a minimum of 4 times a week. And that "Hmm... lets try that again" thing is the worst thing to show a pissed off hungry person haha. But sometimes I feel some of the stuff people say and are doing on there is just an act. But it's the internet. What isn't an act? On a sidenote: I need some Ketamine. I think that's how you spell it but I've seen what it does to noisey, irritating kids and I like it! I'm starting to question what to wear to my interview now. I never second guess myself when it comes to clothes but I am now. Plus I need to get my hair cut the day before... argh stressy. I have no idea about the hair cut but it needs to be done. M L xoXox

Monday, 2 August 2010

I'm going to make an attempt

I made a list of things I want to try and change this month.
  1. I want to see a few friends that I haven't seen in months. Actually in nearly a year. I sort of miss them and want to fill in with everything.
  2. Laugh more. At least once every 2 days.
  3. Go out a tad more. Nothing radical.
  4. I don't have a fourth I just don't like odd numbers :P

So yeah. I need to work on them. I don't know if I will but I can only but try.

Back to the job thing. I can't help but use it as an extra motivation to lose weight. It's bad like but I can't help it. It's almost like an added push this month to just start fading away. It's soo wrong but... Meh it's like 2 weeks away anyway.



Sunday, 1 August 2010

Fucking do one and hello August :D

I actually want to give up on so many things. Somethings actually deserve you to just walk away from. Just throw your hands up in the air and say fuck off! Such a positive post for the first day of a new month right? xD Soo... FUCK OFF! *Slams the door and walks out* Soo it's August. New month. Bloody hell is it really christmas in just under 5 months? Well at least I don't have to buy presents for people ;) haha. August though. Jesus. Getting sick of my friends right now. Especially the ones that don't know shit and then make judgement. First things is first. I will eat when I want to eat NOT when you want me to. If I don't want to then keep your big nose out of it. Isn't it just the most annoying this when people tell you what to do? Especially when you are practically and adult. Plans for this month:
  • Go to the gym daily.
  • Dye my hair red weekly/fortnightly.
  • Do my college application.
  • Holy shit! Go to a job interview on the 17th?
  • Mmm lose weight? Hell that's on the plan every month.

Oh shit I am scared. Wait that's mean I don't go to college in September. It means I do it online "/ Mmm.