Thursday, 30 December 2010


Miss sleep. That is all. For now. x

Tuesday, 28 December 2010

Good morning

I think my phone is playing doofus since it never told me I had comments. Or maybe it did and I deleted them like I normally delete everything on the phone. I am rarely on Msn to check emails on the laptop. Anyway I hope you all had a good christmas. Mine wasn't too bad actually. These past 4 or so days though I have been eating (and drinking) like 2010 is the end of the world. It's mental and unless my scales are as dippy as my phone, I am just a couple of pounds off of my HW. That is not something you want to see first thing on a icy, cold, horrible tuesday. Blah. *sighs* I wish people would stop sending me lame ass stuff on Facebook. Which reminds me I need to do a friend clean up on that thing at some point... Too many weirdo's, moronic ED people and just general idiots on there. Moving on. I finally got around to opening all my gifts by this morning. How bad is it that I never opened them on Saturday? I am thankful to say I did NOT get a pair of ghds this year! You have no idea how thankful I was of that small thing but when you have in total 7 pairs of hair straighteners (5 ghds, other too are babyliss or something)... You get my point? Most of my friends and me all agreed on gift cards or something. Some I trust enough to buy for and to have a proper gift in return. Ooh and I got socks xD What is christmas without socks? Haha i do have a sock thing though. I can never go clothes shopping and not buy socks. *Yawn* It's nearly 10am. I should go to bed or something. I know. My sleeping pattern is stuffed. Have a good day anyhow :) Much Love Take Care xoXox

Friday, 24 December 2010

Merry Christmas eve!!

So I'm finally blogging again. It may be Christmas Eve and I most likely should be cooking something to eat before going out later tonight but that doesn't matter =] I am going to make an effort to comment on all your blogs too but incase I miss one or two Merry Christmas. Have a lot of fun even if it is a day of food. And I've just realised I have been blogging nearly a year! Oh wow. I've been on here longer than my current account on PT. Anyway onto the blog. I have no idea what I want to say actually. I think I just wanted to say Merry Christmas and all that. I'm spending tonight getting slightly drunk with my friends and having a good time which suprisingly is going good. It's actually a nice feeling to be having a good time for once. You have so many down days with EDs and crap that when you get a good happy day you embrace it. I am shitting tomorrow though. I still have my 800 cals for food today but tomorrow could go both ways. I'm trying to look at it by saying it's only one day and it obviously won't kill me and I refuse to purge. I don't want to ruin my christmas by doing that. *I'm telling my friend about singing little donkey in primary school. He's laughing but it was really cute if you look back at videos lol* I sort of give up at replying to everyone now. I still have to go on Facebook which actually is always fun at parties ;] Anyway enjoy your christmas eve's (or christmas day if you are an Aussie!) and enjoy Christmas day. Only comes once a year. And remember you are all amazing. I <3> Much Love xoXox

Saturday, 18 December 2010

Friday/Saturday laughs and tears

I've enjoyed my day/night (whatever) actually. I am glad I didn't go to bed at 01:30 when I felt I was going to. Frodette, Person, Asdf, Alba, That_Fat_Lassie, Selkie, Heavierthan... I'm not sure the end of that because I'd have to click on your profile and everyone else on PT are amazing! And Patience. It's sad to see her leave but if it means she recovers then I am very happy. :D But I have seriously laughed at more things on PT than the threads by Person tonight. It's weird using peoples user names rather than names. *Shrugs* But the topics... Oh my gosh! If you was on and read them I hope you giggled! It was nice to have something not so depressing on there for once :) Patience's post made me kind of cry though. I am really losing my credibility at being a tough guy but this is between you and me. (this was what made tough ol' me cry a wee bit) Run_hide_and cry(sorry if i butchered, I see your posts so often, and you seem lovely. A great helper and honest. I hope some day you wont want to run, hide, or cry. But love where you are, live to the fullest, and smile. (and then to everyone on the site) I love tons more of you, and hope you all can recover or at least find that middle ground. I hope you find love, kids if ya want em, fulfill your careers paths and accomplish all goals for life. I hope you sing and dance and kiss people and take adventures. I hope you live and don't let your ED's stop you from your inner spirit. --- It's amazing how much people care for each other on PT. Even when the site sucks big time, there is still some amazing people on there. Wow how much of my post is based on PT without me bashing it once? Amazing. But you guys on here rock too. I know some of you barely use PT anymore but you are all still so lovely. I think I might even like you all more than my everyday and part time friends :D Okay so enough of the softness. It's a bit lame isn't it? Yeah tell the truth ;) With my birthday coming up I am getting softer with old age. It's Christmas day a week today. It so does not feel like it. I still have a bit of shopping to do. We have to do our party shopping still actually aka alcohol. Yes I intend to enter Christmas day drunk and maybe even end it that way. I know that is how New Years eve is going. *I wonder if it is still snowing?* Kind of. How is everyone else spending Christmas? I'm spending mine with friends instead this year. I really cannot do family this year. I'd possibly kill somebody or commit suicide. Yes they are that bad. Hats off to all you spending Christmas at home. You have my sympathy. It's past 6am. I should try and go to sleep. I am meant to be going shopping at 10am haha. Oh lordy lord and if it keeps snowing and gets really bad like it is meant to... Yeah I should sleep or get coffee. I am going to the cinema 3 times in January. How cool right? I'm finally going to go and see Harry Potter, am getting dragged along to Burlesque (not so sure. Christina as a singer = great. As an actress = : ) and then on the 21st or 22nd or maybe even the 23rd (my birthday :D ) I am going to see Black Swan with a few friends. I am looking forward to that movie. Looks awesome. Okay so this is getting long and I am getting bored. Night to you Americans, Morning to the Brits and Europeans and afternoon/evening you Aussies :) Have a good day anyhoo. I didn't even say half of what I was inteding to lol. Oh well. Much love Take care xoXox

Tuesday, 14 December 2010

Rainy tuesday

Today has been pretty miserable. I don't mind the rain though. It's meant to turn to snow in the next few days. I hope it does anyway. A white Christmas would be stunning :) I find myself doing this really weird thing lately. Whenever I walk to Tesco and see a slim girl/woman or whatever I am always noticing what they are buying, when we leave the store (not together I may add) I find myself wondering why they are walking if they choose to walk. Do they not have a care? Can't they afford the bus? (Hey it's pretty expensive these days to use public transport.) It's really weird but I can't help it. It's like when you sit in the city centre with a drink from Starbucks with your friends and guess what people do for a living. Maybe I just notice too much and question things that shouldn't be questioned? It's a thought. Why am I writing this in the Edit Html bit? Meh. These next few weeks are going to be a test of character. I have so many social gatherings and things to go to. I really don't want to. Truth be told I'd rather snuggle up with an hot water bottle and read a good book. Well I like the alcohol side of things but it doesn't feel like Christmas or a time to celebrate. I don't know. Maybe it is because I can't be bothered pretending to enjoy this year. I wish I could though. Aren't I depressing? I should be asleep right now. I have a really long boring day ahead of me. But it is the last week to do what I need to before people decide to stop working. I have to go party shopping tomorrow with a friend too. I'm going maybe this week. Probably actually. People seem to panic buy in the few days up to Christmas. It's mad. I don't get it. You can't possibly starve in the one day Tesco isn't open. Goodness me people lol. God. I remember when I used to write long and interesting posts haha. My creativity and social life seems to be pretty bleak doesn't it? You can almost hear it flat lining. Listen. Did you hear that?... Yeah. That was the machine giving up. ;) Oh that reminds me. Earlier today when I was at my place my friend was over whilst this guy sorted the electric machine out and he was talking about older people and their sex lives. He kept going "Imagine your mum doing that. Or you grandma." Needless to say the images I saw in my head... I would pay good money to never see them again! Nasty. What is it with men and them sorts of comments? On a side note the electrician was pretty cute. I do remember that *grins* Right I should go to bed. I've spent too long writing this. I'm going to watch South Park and attempt to sleep (which really means spend hours listening to the iPod and reading). Have a good morning,afternoon,evening or night wherever you are. Na'Night Take care Much love xoXox

Saturday, 11 December 2010


I like the amount of followers I have lol. How are you all? I haven't blogged in quite a while which is pretty bad. I have been sort of busy lately. Christmas is killing me and I'm not liking buying all these presents. Yes I'm bad but people never use what you buy them. I've resorted to buying most people gift cards because I can't be bothered asking them what they want and going through all that stuff. I'd rather buy them something they can buy what they want with. I have parties from next Friday too. Thank goodness it'll all be over with soon. Then it'll be my birthday. Looking forward to it and dreading it. I'll be 18. I don't know if I am going to feel differently. Well I mean apart from drunk/hungover. I've actually never had an hangover. I can aim for one lol. It means I can get a tattoo too :D Legally. I never wanted to get one illegally even though a close family friend is a tattoo artist. Yes I am a good girl. Cute and good. Two words that will follow me for life! I don't think I have too much to say actually. I sort of just wanted to update this thing. I remember how I had to do it religiously and now I'm so rubbish at it. I should make it a resolution to update it at least once a day... Okay I'll admit. The reason I don't want to write much is because I am playing Call of Duty and on PT. Multi tasking at it's finest. On a random note I need to weigh myself in the morning. I need to know what sort of damage I need to undo before the 24th of January since my birthday is on a Sunday. Worst day ever really isn't it? But yeah. Since I an getting a tattoo on my side (one of them) I don't... Well it would be nice to be a wee bit smaller :) Hope you are all okay. And smile!
You are beautiful! <3
Much Love
Take Care

Sunday, 5 December 2010

Whatever you want to call it

I got my laptop back! Yayayayay! I'll be off on a comment/follow spree at some point today :) I've become addicted to PT again. It's pretty bad lol. Another site I can't help but go on is . It is pretty awesome and really addicting actually. My whole body aches. I think it's from playing around in the snow. I actually ran in it the other day. It was pretty epic. I'll put some pictures on actually. They look a bit blurry because it was snowing and I was using my phone. I look fat too but I guess it wasn't helped by the fact I had 2 tops on, a jacket and a coat. Oh and scarf lol. ^ Hehe. Just for the fun of it. ^ My feet were so cold but that is the field we ran in. Fun! ^ Yes. Slightly mental! ^That was the deep part going through a field. It was cold. I love how the bags don't sink though. So funny! It's the same field has the 2nd picture. ^That hill was terrible but so funny to go up and down! People fell and I had to laugh. An hearse got stuck just a little bit further down this hill on it's way to the cemetery.


So that was the snow in Leeds. We spent like 4 hours looking for somewhere to use a bank card because everywhere kept on shutting. Good exercise though ;) and really good fun. I really enjoyed myself out in it.

I bought an advent calender too because I felt left out. I got an Hello Kitty one. It's adorable and *gasps* I've actually only been eating one a day. Sometimes I end up eating it all lol. But so far, so good.

Anyway I have no idea where this post is going but I guess it was just a quick hello and I hope you are having a good weekend.

Oh and them pictures where taken on the Wednesday I thought it was oging to go really rubbish. It wasn't too bad I guess :)

Much Love

Take Care


Wednesday, 1 December 2010

Gotta feeling

I have a feeling today is just going to not go to plan for me. I've had no sleep though I ain't tired, just cold. Can't say stepping on that scale helped me this morning. Gah don't you just hate starting the day in not a alrightmood and then have it change just like that? I hate it. How can you be happy one minute and then really down 10 minutes later? Anyway this isn't my proper blog. Just a moan before I go and get ready to face this (cold, dark) day. Happy December by the way since it is the first :) Much Love Take Care xoXox

Monday, 29 November 2010

About time!

I can finally get into this thing! Either blogger is screwed or my internet is a bit of a 'tard! My weekend has been pretty good. It's kind of weird to say that. Weekends are normally very rubbish but this one has been alright. I've done actually nothing apart from spending time on Facebook and Prettythin. Oh and I went out in the snow! It's really pathetic but it's sooo cute. I'm not sure I am keen on these - degree celsius temps but I can live with it as long as I get snow :P I just need to work on being more active. I know from either Thursday or Monday, not sure which, I am going back to my beloved gym :D So excited to finally get to go back and do something. I would go outside and run or something but I have already fallen on my ass once! I forgot how slippy that hill gets since water leaks from some pipe. Ouchie! I so do not want to fall in front of people. You never know whether to laugh or cry haha. I remember when I worked in the hospital and one of the nurses fell of the bus into a huge ass puddle. I had to walk the long way around the hospital to avoid laughing in her face. So evil but it was so funny. A 13 hour shift with that in mind isn't easy you know ;) I can't believe it's nearly December! Why hasn't anybody warned me? I still have a ton of christmas shopping to do. Oh and I still have to sort it out to get the £600 and something from my (forgotten the name) account I never really use. I really am lazy. I should do it this week... I'll do it Wednesday. I think I am going christmas shopping that day anyway so yeah. It should be simple. Ha! Getting money back from places these days is like trying to squeeze blood from a stone! I have no idea what to buy people for christmas though. Plus I have so many parties and things coming up. Christmas doesn't mean a holiday anymore. It means time off work/school to get absolutely hammered! Last christmas I think I drank more alcohol than at any other time in my life! So many birthdays around christmas/new years too. God help the liver people! Anyway I hope you've all had a good weekend :) Much love Take care xoXox

Thursday, 25 November 2010

Hello again

So how are you all? My day has been alright. Could have been better but I didn't rock out of bed until 1pm. Then again I didn't get too sleep until 8am since my friends upstairs neighbour has the feet of a flipping rhino! Don't you just hate noisy people? My eating today has been horrid though. I have eaten more than a pig today. I am pretty suprised I haven't sprouted ears and a tail ;) I shall keep a look out and report back if I do by tomorrow haha. Leeds must be the only place where it hasn't snowed. Correction a few pieces fell whilst I was out shopping but that wasn't even snow! It was a few white things. Everywhere else in Yorkshire has had snow but oh it has to skip Leeds. I have a vison. It involves everywhere in the UK getting snow bar Leeds. It'd be funny. It's practically the middle of the UK so it'd be kind of a giggle... 'Tis freezing though! 1 degree whilst I was out in town. My weight hasn't shifted in a week nearly either. It is so effing annoying. I miss the days of fasting and losing more than 5lbs in a week. These days it seems I can't go a week without b/p'ing. : La-di-fricking-da. ^^ That is my word of the day. Hope you've all had a good day and if you've had snow... I'm coming to your city!! ;)
Oh and I forgot! Here's a picture of me being a good person yesterday and donating blood :)
Much Love Take Care xoXox

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Hii newbies

Long time no proper blog! I spent the weekend with friends so it would have been hard to hide writing and my excuse for yesterday was... I'll think of one by the time I have written this out ;) Hello new followers by the way too. Thought I'd be polite. I have actually been pretty busy these last 2 days. Simpily doing useless stuff but it's kept me busy and got my eating back in check. About time too. I mean I was probably only averaging 1000 or less for the past week or something but I hate feeling full and I really don't like eating that much. I had so much to write and my mind as gone completely blank. I should stop texting and surfing the net because it is distracting me badly! An advert has just come on TV and it totally reminded me I never saw Toy Story 3! I was meant to but never went. I want to see HP though but once the hype's died down. I heard about Dobby dying. It made me want to cry! I so did not want to read that on Facebook. Grr! I have read the last book but I didn't want it to play out on screen. Poor Dobby :'( I soo fail at blogging tonight. I haven't even thought of an excuse haha. I have to eat something tomorrow since I am donating blood. Only thing I hate is drinking all the water beforehand. And they don't let you leave unless you eat and drink. Nurses lol. I'll take my own water because I don't do the water they use. Yes I am so snobby ;) haha. I will only drink bottles water. Tap is a bit too... nasty to me. So that is my useless post of the day :) I'll be a bit more interesting tomorrow evening. Take Care Much Love xoXox

Sunday, 21 November 2010


:) Sarah: I like your idea :) It's either that or I will just spend it all on something whilst out haha. Danae: I was listening to The Silence by Alexandra Burke. Night flower: Haha I think we are proof you don't have to be old to lose things. My room gets like that. I have way too many clothes and shoes and things in general. It's all the make up and hair stuff that seems to take over. Holly: It is an addiction I guess isn't it? You either eat everything all the time or nothing at all. : English Rose: Gosh I feel you. Even when I am restricting to real low numbers sugary things are still what I eat. Haha I know that feeling. I've gone to the ground floor of apartments I live in and out the door and wondered "What am I doing out here?" MyLifeIsAnEpicFail: I hate money. It shouldn't be used but I guess we need it. My main thing is my bank is right near all the shops. It's annoying. Mich: Thanks! I've had an alright weekend :) Rosette: I've done it whilst texting. Can't quite say it's gone as far as when I am talking on the phone haha. Maybe it's because I don't call people often? In a very nerdy way I LOVE organizing things :P I reorganize things all the time. Bad habit. xx

Thursday, 18 November 2010

I really...

Wish I didn't have any money to buy food to binge on. I hate taking money out of the bank when I don't need it. It's annoying to have it laying around when I don't trust my self control. Gah. I need to distract myself. I'm off to read blogs soon :) and comment on PT/Facebook. I finally sorted out my wardrobe today. Took a while but I finally did it. I have so much stuff and have never realised it. But my room and things are all absolutely tidy and the right place and it feels so nice to be in an ordered bedroom. I am sure I will have to redo it again in a few weeks because I still have a lot of things to bring to mine from my friends house and I am pretty sure I have a few boxes at my uncles. I really do have too many things but oh wells :P Okay I have just spent 10 minutes looking for my earphones and they are in my ears connected to my iPod. I really am losing it. It's really not good to be forgetful at 17 years old. I ain't even a proper adult yet. Oh that song I was listening to the other day? I only stopped listening to it this evening. How sick is it being able to listen to the same thing over and over for 3 days?! Then again I've formed a liking for some of Leona Lewis's unreleased songs. How I do love music to take my mind off of things. I need to reply to comments... Maybe after I've done some reading :) Take care Much love xoXox

Tuesday, 16 November 2010


I am so tired. It's not something that happens too often at like 10pm. I think I might make a cuppa hot chocolate or something and watch tv in bed because I am yawning like mad.

I saw the new Iceland advert in the early hours of this morning. I thought I was tripping out since it was 5am haha. It's not something I initally laughed at or rather laugh at. It's a little bit of an "Oh dear Jason" moment. Gosh. I couldn't do that and I am a woman!! ;) Suspenders and the sort. Tsk tsk lol.

I've forgotten what I wanted to write. This is not good. Memory loss at 17 "/ But on a random note I have had Alexandra Burke's - The Silence on my iPod since I started watching TV at like 7pm. I don't normally like her music but the song is quite nice. Yup. I do love a big ballad over a CC song anyday :)

Since Friday I have been trying to get a picture of my hair because I dyed it a lovely shade of red (yay to redoing it every 2 weeks cos I love the brightness) and it's failing. I've left my lovely camera at my friends and my BlackBerry is just rubbish at capturing the red. It makes it look browner than it was before. I've tried the iPhone too and it's still pretty meh! Flipping phones. Gah. I'll get a picture at some point even if I have to wait until the next time I dye it. I'm a girl on a mission


I'm seriously loving this song! I picked up on the lyrics after 15 minutes. I love it when you can do that or relate to the lyrics. I do with this song quite a lot. I'm not sure my neighbour will appreciate my new current song to sing but he'll survive.

Today has been an iffy day with food. I think I have had around 920 calories. The downside is I still have food left that my friend bought earlier today and I just can't justify throwing it away. I mean I don't want to eat it but I am one of those people who hates wasting food. The sad thing is I am actually contemplating eating it. Why do I do this? Gosh I confuse myself 89% of the time. It's another 840 calories. Fml. I haven't even eaten it and feel bad : Wtf right? Ah well. I am not going to eat it no matter how bad I feel.


That is it for me. I am going to get ready to go to bed even though I know that when I get into bed I won't be able to sleep. I'll comment back to you people who commented on the last post when I wake up. By the way Alba your posts made me giggle when the notification came through to my phone :) hahaa.

PS: Does that who are you doing this for? thread always around on pt annoy any of you? I know it annoys me in a sense because it almost makes it sound like a choice. I don't know. Maybe I am just sensitive.

Good night anyway.
Take care
Much love

Monday, 15 November 2010

Back to Monday

My apartment is way too warm. Never did I think I'd say that but gosh I think I may just die. Put that with it's quite sunny outside (don't faint or anything lol) and yeah. The heat is annoying me. I have to go back to the doctors in December at some point for a FBC. Nice to wake up with that letter in front of the door on the floor. I don't see the point cos he'll just say come back in 2 months. He's a royal pain in the arse. I don't actually have much to say since it's only 1pm. I think I might just hang around at home today and catch up with things. Maybe I'll go on a blog finding spree on PT. Is it just me or is that site quiter these days? Maybe it's just me... Did anyone watch the fiX Factor last night? Okay Aiden wasn't my type of artist but oh my gosh! Seriously? How can they keep that weasel and kick him out? So not right! And Cheryl Cole looked like a flipping idiot. I find myself loving Danni lately and I couldn't stand either of them last year or the year before. Take Care Much Love xoXox

Thursday, 11 November 2010

11-11-10 aka Remembrance Day

I 'fess up that I sort of failed at spelling remembrance but oh well. RIP to all the guys that put their lives at risk fighting for a shitty world. It's unfair they are at war whilst Call me Dave and Nasty Nick are being total wankers but I guess that how it's 'goes'. Anybody else think that David Cameron actually needs to fix Britain before preaching to China? Actually every Prime Minister or President needs to sort out their own mess before bailing other countries and that out. Just a thought and all. I really want to study politics and run for leadership now. I could do better blindfolded and handcuffed and that is saying something!! And them muslims in London should be ashamed of themselves for protesting what they did. Absolutely disgusting and even more vile hiding behind their religion. I know some lovely muslims and they would never do that. Burning poppies and saying British Soldiers burn in hell. If we did that in Afghan or anything we'd be executed immediately. I can't stand people who hide behind a religion. Tbh they probably aren't even religious. They probably just like giving every practicing muslim a bad name and it gives people ammo to critise that religion and then the extremists get another oppurtunity to protest. Gah protest over in Afghanistan if you want things to change because it isn't Britains fault that the country if effed up. It's like Africa. Corrupt government. Will never change and I think people there have accepted that. Just stupid governments sticking their noses in where it doesn't belong. The war should end because lets face it... Russia didn't win the war in Afghanistan years back so why would a country like Britain or America? Anyway I should move on... I don't want to but I don't want to bore you with politics lol. I stood on the scales yesterday... All this binging and shit I gained around 7lbs. Gah shit blah! I expected gain but gosh that was a shock. Thankfully yesterday was on okay day. I had like... I can't remember. Under 550 I think. Today on the otherhand has been a binge fest. Maybe it is the period issue but I am looking like a pig and feeling like one. I don't even think I can stay online in this stupid weather. I can actually feel and hear my windows rattle from the wind and rain! I love but hate it. 'Tis freezing though and I am slightly scared to go to the vets in the morning if it is still this windy. The car won't have to use petrol haha ;) Wind power. CO2 admissions shall go down lol. So on that note Na'Night :) Take Care Much Love xoXox

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

Craziness but my craziness :)

I have like 5 windows open with 4 tabs open in each of them with all (most) of your blogs. I am lacking seriously with coming online. But here is to comments :) And hey newbies following :)
Last few days have been pretty... regular. Well for a normal person. For someone like me it's been my idea of hell.

^^ That has been the subject of most of the suffering. Okay not pepperoni and not in an heart shape (but it is pretty cute) but yes. Cheese pizza. If I never see another one in my life it won't be too much of a problem.

I don't know my weight which is pretty scary o.O I don't want to stand on the scale though. I am pretty sure it is a bit dodgy (me and dodgy scales hey? We seem to have flipping history.) I should check it out when my friend goes tomorrow. Yes I have been stuck with him for like God knows how many days now "/

I am cold. Like freezing. I think I may have finally commented on all your blogs too but I am not sure. I've been going at it for around 1 hour now. I don't want to say I have done it though and then somebody comment and say I forgot them. Right I seriously think I have commented on everything since I last posted. I think.

I need to change my doctors to one that is actually credible. I mean no offence but I have seen the daft twat like twice and he is such an arogant little twat. He should have stayed in precious India if he loved it so much (he's from somewhere in Manchester I think but did medicine out there. Besides the weather I see no reason to since we have great medical schools but *shrugs*) I liked my other doctor but all this one does is when I have a blood test, he'll send a letter saying come back in 2 months and then just do the same! He makes me so mad!!

I need a new dentist too. I didn't know they could take you off the patient list. I'm kinda confused because dim me doesn't know how you find a dentist lol. I always had an adult taking care of that. Guess I need to Google it ;) And here I thought being an adult was easy lol. I don't want to go though because the ED really has screwed my teeth up. Ugh. The idea of somebody yanking my teeth out is not pleasing me at all but the idea of doing nothing is not pleasing me either. "/ Pfft!

I should... do something else. Oh my gym membership isn't mine this month. My bank was a total arse and blocked everything from coming out of my account. And to be even more annoying they owe my over £400 from an overdraft [which never even occured and is illegal since I am not 18] but I have to go to the other side of flipping Leeds. Safe to say I is pretty pissed. Well not pissed enough to go and get it lol but still annoyed. Banks suck.

So in the words of Bruno Mars: You are amazing just the way you are :D

Take Care

Much love


Saturday, 6 November 2010


I almost forget to blog today! So bad. I haven't commented or read your blogs either but in my defence I am on my phone and don't actually know your blog addys :P I do promise to read them though. I don't even have much to blog about since I spent most of today just laid in bed. Yeah I really was that lazy! Until I went out with friends anyway. I can't wait until they all go back to work or college/university. It only seems to be party season right now and it's getting boring. [I've just spillt WKD into my glass of coca cola. Not too sure I want to drink that now :/] Anyway I'll do a longer update in the morning because the iPhone isn't the best phone to blog on. BB is easier to use for that purpose. And I'll comment/follow you all because I think I have some newbie followers. And I'll go on PT. Basically I'll go back to being an internet whore ;) Have a good weekend :) Take Care Much Love xoXox

Friday, 5 November 2010

I made it *waves*

Hii :)

I'm going to make a day of it tomorrow catching up with everybodies lovely blogs. I've missed out on a week of your lives :O

^ That made me sound a bit stalkerish. Be sure to lock your doors tonight ;] haha.

I'm currently sneezing like mad and being told to hurry up so we can go to Tesco. Classy right? Ah well, I still have to get a shower :P I have pushy friends.

It's bonfire night, isn't it? I'm asking you, yet getting ready to go to a fire. Genius. I, or rather we, are hopefully going to have an okay night. I am going to forget about annoying friends. I really do hate people who just don't shut up. I am quite nice to people, but gosh! Some people really make you want to hurt them. Especially one. I have never met anybody quite like her, and to be quite honest, I never wish to meet another one like her.

Um, I am quite sure I have other things to say...

Oh the first week of November as been an utter fail in all meanings of the word. Seriously. :| I don't know what is wrong with me. I do well for a month and then for a week or so it's like :@ I guess tomorrow is a new day like I tell everyone else.
Funny how you can give advice and help other people going through the same thing but never take your own advice. That truelly baffles me.

Anyway I should go and... wash my hair or some other thing. Here's to a good night out and then avoiding nights out for a few weeks. This time of year is so difficult for avoiding things don't you think?

Take Care
Much Love

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

I'll be back

On PT and here and all that soon. I miss typing out my thoughts :) It sucks being really busy but I'll get back to it soon. So um... yeah. Take care xox

Sunday, 31 October 2010

Ahem... nothing important

I am stuck babysitting my 2 little cousins. I swear I kind of want to kill them. They want me to sing the Barney song however I do not know the 'clean' version of that. Plus it's nearly 2am. Well 1am with the clocks going backwards I think. Ahh time confuses me. It's been a fucked up day. Okay but fucked up in many ways. All I know is I want my idiotic (ain't I lovely to my 'family'?) aunt and uncle to pick my cousins up early though because I am not taking them to my other grandparents for their little Halloween party. I like my grandad(?) of some sorts (I don't keep up with my family tree to be quite honest. I was going to call him grandfather then but cos he's only in his 50's he prefers grandad. Actually I call him by his name since we are pretty much on first name basis) but his ex-wife is a doylem. I mean a proper eejit! I don't do family. Actually I don't do people in general. But the ex-wife is a reason I don't want to go. She's obsessive and not in a good way even though I'm not sure there can be a good way. But staying on track I want the kiddies gone by at least 2pm because... I have things to do. Of sorts anyway. I have plans at the least : But I see myself having to go to their party for an hour or so. Sweets, food and family. Not THAT is an horror movie plan!! We are currently watching some roulette program. (Ara)Bella and Rhi(annon) love it. They are sat/laid choosing the numbers. I currently hate it. I hate gambling. Still I want to choose a right number dammit! lol. It is a good thing I don't have a gun currently though. One would be right in thinking I would be quite dangerous ;) It's nearly November. Freaking November! I said I would be, no I AM going to be100lbs or less by Christmas. That is in... *pulls Blackberry out* 56 days including today. Crap. Ah I guess it's do or die trying right? I hate this rubbish. 56 days. Gah. Ah I'm bored. And hungry. And have my version of that Barney song in my head. Wtf right? I should go and put the terrors to bed. Happy Halloween by the way. Replies Lis: I know! English sucks in terms of essays. Especially when they are majorly long! xxx Bella: Funny that's Arabella's nickname. Anyway eek! I sort of feel for you. Though I think it's worse when you don't seem them too often because weight loss is easier to notice for people who aren't around you 24/7. xxx Got2 (Sounds a bit nicer than f*ckedup!) : Oh so you are like me then? I normally give myself a stupid amount of time to do an even more stupid amount of work. Ahh. You really aren't missing much with Facebook. I think it should be renamed a therapy group or something ;] xxx Mich: It is isn't it? Some people must have that thing about them that it is just not possible to lie to them. I have no conscience either. I am glad I live on the 7th floor away from trick or treaters haha. They can be mean :O Well I have a party later on Sunday with a bunch of friends and probably a kiddies Halloween party. Sugar, sugar, SUGAR overload! : xxx

Thursday, 28 October 2010

[No title]

Last Night
Last night I went out with a couple of friends to Tiger Tiger. You only have to be 18 so I was only slightly lying lol. Well half of us were only slightly lying. I hear you have to be 21 to go to Tiger Tiger in London I think it is? Wicked people lol. It was quite fun though. There was a point though where I almost in a sense wanted to spill every little thing about me that they didn't know (David and Jay who I don't even know well) I have no idea why but it was really weird. I just ended up getting another drink with Alexx.
It was such a strange feeling though because I have never, ever felt like that. And nope it wasn't the alcohol because I am not the type to open up about everything once drinking. I hope this doesn't repeat itself. Especially not on Sunday. You can shoot me if I blog and say I have lol.
After we'd had enough of the place, we went (me and 4 others - we always seem to end up in a odd numbered group for some reason) to my friend Charlie's. That isn't her full name, just a nickname but ya know. I think we ended up staying there until some time after 2am just drinking, chatting and playing Guitar Hero. Yes we are big kids lol. It was fun though but I feel... sort of disconnected from my friends for some reason.
Eating Disorders do suck in terms of effing things up with people right?
Me and Ali ended up crashing at her dads. I must say we didn't choose the smart thing because I live closer to Charlie and then Ali lives 20 minutes or so away (sober walking of course haha). Not too smart are we?
So Today Obviously ;)
Reading Mich's blog I think it was reminded me of what my friends dad said to me early this morning. I hate mornings because I have never slept. That and it's too bright. Vampire alert.
Back to the story. But oh my gosh my friends brother was just on the news! Regional news anyway. He's called Kevin... Why am I telling you this? They was talking about when they was out in Afghanistan. I need to stop writing out my random thoughts. You guys will get confused.
Right so back to the story! He in a sense played a concerned parent (my friends dad that is incase you are sort of lost by my confusing writing) asking lots of questions and things. I don't think he wanted to give that impression but yeah. That is the one I got. I find it really hard to lie to him. I have no idea why but I think we all have at least 1 person who it really kills us to lie to. My family don't have that effect. Hell I could lie all day long to them and not even give it a first thought never mind a second one. But that is something I bloody hope I never have to do anytime soon. Ugh. The scary thing is I'm a pretty great liar :/
So today has been pretty mixed really. Oh and Got2/F*ckedUpAppendix, whichever you prefer... I googled my name and well these are the pictures I got back...
A couple of eating disordered people, models, Tyra Banks, 2 yummy pictures of Jared Leto... and a few other weird pictures. I pretty much get thinspiration back when I google my PT name.
I should get on with my English Essays... English. Pfft. I hate it. I don't even know why I am doing it since I am leaving the course. Maybe I'll be a rebel and just 'forget' about it. On a little side note though why do people on Facebook put their walls on private but not their photos?? I'm kind of puzzled on that one lol.
Hope you guys are having a good day. Do any of you have anything planned for Halloween on Sunday?
Much Love

A reminder to me

I'm going to read your lovely blogs and comment. If I don't comment... you have permission to cyber kick my arse! ;) Much Love

Wednesday, 27 October 2010


I will get around to commenting and readin your blogs. Honestly. I feel I missing something since I haven't but I can't be bothered right now. How bad right? At least I am honest though. I went on TinyDreams a little while ago. It's pretty nice actually. I might make a go of going on often-er if that is even a word (I know it isn't.) I did go on PrettyThin too but it's lost something. I don't know what but it's... different. I need to stop moaning about this site. I really do. We all know it is changing. Anyway moving on. It's so nice to type again. I sort of miss not typing. Sad huh? No actually I miss not writing everything that is in my head. Or rather what isn't in it. But time away from all this has probably done me good. I have so much I want to say but so little words to say it in. And I have so much to do it's quite unreal : I think I will post again tonight when I don't have things to do. Hope you guys are enjoying today. We've got sun *shriek!* it's windy enough to blow me to Oz though!! And freezing cold. Much love xoXox

Monday, 25 October 2010

hey guys

No posts in a few days. I broke my laptop charger. Correction... my beautifully named cousins did. I'm getting a new one on Wednesday though so that'll be all sorted. Irony in this entire thing is my friend sorted the wires out on the charger and now my dongel (dongal?) doesn't want to work. Bloody 3 connect! So I haven't read any of your lovely blogs :( I do need to read at least Got2's blog because it's always cool (not that everyone elses isn't...) it's a moral thing. I've know her longest haha! I will read them all though soon I promise... as soon as I have a chance to scream at a 3 representitive ;) I see PT is still being a dope... I can't be arsed checking that out today. I don't need the added drama from there too. That site is changing or maybe I am? Who knows right? I have so much to write but not enough time. That and my fingers are frozen. You see I am in McDonalds with my friend because she wants to use their free wi-fi to do her Uni work and I want to talk to you lovelies :) and since my aunt is the manager here it's wocked. Free drinks and wi-fi. Could it be any better? Haha. So ello :) I hope you are having a good week so far. Much love xoXox

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Confessions of a Barbie doll

Does anyone ever wake up starving? I haven't before but lately... oh my gosh. I'm nom nom nom mad! It's quite bad actually. Maybe it's because I have tried changing my sleeping pattern. I force myself to go to bed before midnight, don't sleep until 2 and then am up at 6am. I should go back to sleeping at some time after 5am like normal. I was never hungry then. Back to writing. I babysat my little cousins yesterday. Laila-Grace is 1, Arabella is 4... 5? I'm not sure actually but she's cute and Rhiannon is (holy crap I have to think now) I don't know. I think 8 or 9. Bad cousin alert well I get called auntie since I am nearly 18. But me and Laila's mum Jaydine my older cousin (confusing isn't it?) and David was babysitting until like 7am this morning then they went to school. We spent the entire day being total girls. Make up, nails, dressing up, watching Barbie and playing with the dolls... embarrassingly enough my dvds/videos and Barbie dolls. I've not thrown them out or even thought about giving them away but shhh! Only on here would I admit that... it was fun actually. I enjoyed that more than eating all the rubbish I did :( I hate binging. Even more so when you can't purge. : David gave me his cold. I can't stop sneezing and my nose is blocked. I always sound more British than ever when I am kind of ill. Sounds weird but it's true. He is currently cooking lunch. Gosh... I've definitely gone back over 130... my apartment smells of food now. It rarely does that since me and my cooker aren't too acquainted lol ;) We have already had cheese toasties of a sort though. Food overload. He's cooking... why did we break up again? I swear I see more of him now and spend more time with him since breaking up with him than I did when I was with him. *shrugs* I really hate writing the blog in the morning because I have the rest of the day to go and miss half of it out since I go to bed before writing another one. Another reason I need to go back to the old sleeping pattern and stop trying to change it. I haven't been doing my positive thing at the end of blogs have I? Um... well for yesterday it was I spent time having fun. With kids. legal fun of course ;] Things regarding kids and me today are coming out... wrong! Hope you are all okay. And for a positive start to the day... name one thing you LOVE. It can be anything. M L xoXoc

Monday, 18 October 2010

That umm...

Rules thread on PT? The irony in that shit is hilarious. I mean it was tried before... Holy cow this is word for word reminding me of a convo with Got2Purge. I am quitely laughing at the irony. I swear one 'member' has more than 1 account on there. It wouldn't be a first if she is who I said she is. She pisses me off to the point I have to laugh or I would find a way to murder her! I have a really simple thing to sort things out:
  • Ignore people asking for tips.
  • Stop being bitches towards people.
  • Reply to what doesn't annoy you.
  • Ignore utter rubbish.
  • Ignore pictures when you hate them.
  • Don't think you are God.
  • Stop trying to change the site. Buy your freaking own if you want to do that. It's not pro, it isn't recovery, it isn't anything. It's what WE make it!
  • And last but not least... Smile!
  • (ps: Have a life outside that site. Little hint hey?)

Not that any of you lovely people do anything idiotic on that site. :)

Sunday, 17 October 2010

Sunday mornings

I am currently watching Wife Swap USA. Very weird people. Seriously. I'm not in the least regular but even I cannot express how weirded out I am by these people. I am also getting rid of them annoying little things that people send you on Facebook. I have too many and it is bugging me. I don't play half of the gane things I get sent. Do these people currently have lives? ;) (Says the girl playing FrontierVille and finishing 3 blogs whilst watching TV and listening to the ex snore.) I feel really limited to what I can say since I am not at home until this afternoon. I think I'll blog later on tonight without the constant gawping at the lappy : M L xoXox

Saturday, 16 October 2010

Families, Friends and Me = *flatline*

It's my cousins birthday today. She is... umm... 19? Wow she still looks younger than me! Albeit she has a kid and I don't. We don't really see each other much so we didn't have anything planned. I did say happy birthday to her on facebook though. Only thing I seem to do there... or play games... it should be called GameBook... yeah I'm rambling now haha. I spent most of today with my friends and ex. We must have walked the entire length of Britain throughout the day! It was painful. We ate a ton though :/ Well I did. They ate their own ton :P Kind of annoying since all week has gone well apart from today and yesterday. I think my friends have that ability to make me eat... I can't blame them though... at least not to their faces. But I think everyone has that one person they hate going against and mine is unfortunately the ex : They were planning my 18th. I'm kind of scared I won't be able to walk home haha xD All they were talking about is alcohol and it should be a long weekend. My 18th birthday is on a Sunday by the way. Boring right? but I don't want to plan my birthday. It's 3 months away. I have loads of time. X factor is on tonight. It's not my thing this year though I do love Mary and Belle Amie? I dunno if that is their name but they sound really cute. I don't dig Cheryls hair though. Red (though to be honest so does brunette) makes her look like she never left the council estate in Newcastle (no offense to anyone who might live in one.) I think she is pretty but nothing extravagant. She looks likes millions of girls who go clubbing every weekend in my opinion. And the malaria thing... please! Just shut up about it. Okay I've gone off on a mini rant about Cheryl Cole but I would respect her more if she attempted to sing and not dance and never spoke about Ashley or malaria again. Right I'll stop in 2 mintutes ;) I hate how Simon agrees with her too or she agrees with him. Don't they have their own minds? And I don't like Cher or Katie either. Can you say OTT drama Queens? Meow! Back to the X Factor. I used to like Rebecca but Cheryl has changed her wayy too much. Same with Trayc (her name spelt that way bugs the ocd part of me) She gives them typical ballads and songs that people like Whitney and Tina would sing. She did it with Alexandra too. She in a way stereotypes her acts. That's my opinion anyway. And she has the same BlackBerry has me. Not sure if that is good or bad... One more thing, what is Wagner? Or Vagner? I think it's Wagner but pronounced Vagner. He is umm... an individual to say the least. Umm so yeah... I seem to be talking about everything right now but what I intended to write about which was... I have no idea. Oh well cuppa coffee and tv night for me :) M L xoXox

Thursday, 14 October 2010

I got lost inside your eyes

I feel half dead or something. I need a regular sleeping pattern because I'm not quite sure it fits into my life to go to sleep in the morning or afternoon for 3 hours. Insomnia is a bitch. I didn't blog yesterday did I? It was a long day but I was just too unmotivated to go online once I had done everything. Today has been really long too. I don't seem to do short days anymore haha. I ended up going to college today for some reason unknown to myself (don't have to be in this week/next week or the week after for that matter. I is bored.) with my friend let's call her C and another guy I don't know well and I've forgotten his name. He wasn't too memorable to be honest. Harsh right? Oh well he'll live. It wasn't too bad though. I ended up picking up some more units to complete whilst I ain't there. I'm not back until the 1st :D That is sheer happiness on my part because it gives me time to try and find something else to do instead of this course. I cannot do an apprenticeship/BTEC in child care for a full year. Well until next June or something daft. I can't believe how much work she gave me though. And the first 3 weeks that nobody did. Umpt! I should join up to the Army and be happy :P We was having a political debate over 'lunch'. I say lunch but we was just drinking coffee in the college coffee shop. Lucky us huh? :) They was all talking bull voer this and that and it was clear that they've probably heard one or two things on the radio or news and decided to start a debate. It was funny if you was listening in on it. I've always wondered why people bring up politics or try and debate it. Especially when they didn't vote and then go onto complain. That really bugs me! Like everyone complains about the Consevatives and Lib Dems but 50% of the people that do voted for them. You should know how both parties work if you are voting for them. The Conservatives are all about rich people and the sort and David Cameron (I feel I have violated my blog by putting his name in it lol) is just plain stupid in my opinion. He's very stuck up George Osbornes arse (sorry again blog for mentioning another idiot) it's hard to tell where David ends and George starts! And Nick Clegg is just a sell out. Gosh I do hate discussing politics. It's in the same league has religion. You'll never get anybody to agree on it. But I do prefer David Milliband over Ed. Maybe it's just because of his name. Ed. Yeah. He is very sarcastic though especially to David Cameron so we'd be best friends haha. The day wasn't too good with food though. Pretty blah but not the worst at all so it's not too bad right now. Still pretty tired though. I need serious sleepers to knock me out for a few days. Maybe weeks/months? Would make not eating easier ;) Well I hope you all have a good weekend :) (just incase I ain't online tomorrow (= ) M L xoXox

Tuesday, 12 October 2010


So them minors are finally getting out of that mine huh? I hope they get out fine. Not sure why I am writing about the news but hey they do deserve to get out of that place. Random : I'm currently looking up shades of pink for my bedroom. I love how when I plan to decorate one room I want to paint all of them haha. though to be fair I do have the paint from ages ago to do my bathroom. White is so boring on it's own throughout an house. I like the idea of a black and electric blue living room but I wouldn't do it. Nice thought though :) The way this guy is talking on QVC is like he is going to have an orgasm from selling tacky shit! Such a weird little man "/ Some of the things he is selling... I have seen more expensive stuff in the pound shop xD hehe. My good news for today is that since Saturday I am down 4.2lbs and finally out of the dreaded 130's :D Now to get out of the 120's haha. You had to know that was coming. It did make me smile though which can be my good thing for the day.

Monday, 11 October 2010

I don't know.

I don't know what to even write about. I don't know whether to do what I want or what is expected of me. I don't know if I am doing what I want to. I don't know a lot of things actually. What I do know is that is okay to now know sometimes. That is my little note to self to remember daily. I need to remind me of it more often I guess. What I do know though is: I know I need to do a thorough clear out of my house so I can paint my bedroom and hall. I know I need to go to the gym this week. I know I need to go to the bank in the morning. I know I need to stop drinking so darn much lol. I know I need to make an attempt at straightening my hair tomorrow too. I know a lot more things but shall not bore everyone :P I also want a Facebook status but haven't got anything interesting to say haaha. I need to sort my outfit out for tomorrow because I like planning these things. I need/should go to the bathroom plus wash my hands. This blog post isn't even a post lol. It's more of a list than anything :L But it's Monday and a pretty boring day. Hope you are all having a good start to the week :) M L xoXox

Sunday, 10 October 2010

[I didn't name it]

It's 10-10-10 for another minute. Kind of cool. I feel sort of emotionless lately. Not much seems to affect me which probably isn't the best thing but meh. Have you noticed everyone seems to have a date they want to be at their GW or a certain month or whatever? I am no exception but what happens after that day? I've never done anything differently the day after reaching a GW. Am I the only one or just slightly boring? I didn't do much today. I've spent most of the day listening to all the music I finally downloaded this morning. (After 7am lol) Once I started I couldn't stop :) I went to the gym too albeit for 15 minutes. For some reason the junior gym was on which it normally isn't and it's just impossible to do much apart from wait for them to fall off the treadmill. Seriously try not laughing at that ;) haha! Evil yes but entertaining. Was it Mich or Bella fasting? Mmm... I'll check. It was Mich. At least I remember names. Good luck with your fast. It's over here in the UK thank goodness. Hope you've had decent weekends ...Back to random internet surfing and music... M L xoXox

Saturday, 9 October 2010

In 52 minutes

I will be on day 2 of not binging. And day 2 of a fast. And on day 1 of going back to the gym... Okay the latter is going to be later on Sunday but ya know ;) I was meant to go today but I didn't sleep until 11am and woke up at 2ish. By the time I got ready it would have been too late since the gym I go to closes at 4pm on a Saturday. Weird I know. So Sunday it is. First day of a new week and all :) On PT (I know I went on it!! Still on it actually... Btw there is some proper idiots on there especially the wannabe trolls...) on this mission thing I do one of my goals is to be more positive. To write down something on here or in my journal something that made me smile or laugh etc. So I am going to stick to that and do it daily :) Gosh this is probably tmi but I am sick of peeing. It's so annoying to get up every 5 monutes. It's like the workout I didn't get this afternoon haha. I think I am going to attempt some units of coursework. I need to catch up on homework plus work we never finished in class. I hate this rubbish lesson. Aha I am actually laughing at this Donny and Marie Osmond thing. I shouldn't admit that. It's kind of lame but that can be my positive thing for today :) Hope you are all having a good weekend. I'm going to download more music for my iPod. M L xoXox

Thursday, 7 October 2010

It's becoming an habit

3am again. It's such an habit to write a blog at 3am for some reason. Whatever lol. I'll go with it.
First of all though I need to get a picture off of my BlackBerry to show you. How scary does that sky look? Thankfully it didn't rain until I got back inside. Phew! I'd have cried if it had of rained : Only cos my hair looked good for once hahaa.
I have a sort of challenge going on with a friend of mine and I just have to say (Since I am being positive and all) I am going to kick your ass!! ;) After all I do have over a month to do so and am wayy too competitive...
I haven't been on PT properly in a while. I should take time out to do so. Thing is it annoys me sometimes but I want to talk to people soo... I'm motivating my bum when I wake up to go on and reply to people because I seem to ignore all but a few comments on my page. I know. I'mma a bitch. I do like commenting on the forums. I spend too long in there though because come on. Have you seen how many posts I have?! I think only Prom Queen has more o.O So sad haha. And I semi miss some drama. Life is a lil dull without laughing at a fool ;) I am evil I know.
There is a girl on there that has posted pictures with the most amazing red hair. If you could steal hair I would already have hers haha :D
Anyway I should go and workout or something. Actually I'll do that when Police Interceptors comes on at 4am-ish. Shh no judging what I watch on TV lol.
Did you all have good Wednesdays?

Wednesday, 6 October 2010

It's that time of morning again...

3am. I should sleep or at least do something productive. I have a long day planned tomorrow aswell. Gah only on days I have to do something do I never sleep for at least a few hours. On another note don't you just hate people who delete you on Facebook then add you again saying you deleted them? I wouldn't accept if I did haha. Whilst on the note of Facebook don't you just hate attention seekers on there? I now remember why I have only been using Facebook lately for the games or reading stuff on the BlackBerry. I'm supposed to be at college tomorrow. I was meant to go in yesterday and monday too but I cba. It's not I don't want to do well, it's just I want to do something I actually like! SInce my tutor on this course left it a month before bothering to try and change my courses I have to wait until next September. I am not doing any shitty child care thing until then. I'd rather sign up to the Army. Why do I always complain? I've just noticed but I complain a lot on here but not in real life or even on PT! Earlier today though whilst out and about I saw this super cute guy. Gotta love living next to all the Uni students lol. (I'm going to attempt to be more positive this month so here's my first shot at it haha) I swear though I felt weak at the knees. Hot but just hot. Not an actual guy you would want to date for longer than a few months lol. Yes I'm coming to the end of my teen years (18 is the end right? I hope so!) and definitely don't do long, not even imaginary. Weird right? [I've just been looking at a friends profile picture on Facebook for like 5 minutes to work out what it was. It's lots of pictures of boobs put together. I feel pervy haha ;) Just thought I should tell you.] I should try and sleep. Long day and all. Plus need to be up early to straighten the hair. Not done it in a wee while lol. Trying not to damage it more with dying it and using heated products y'know? My hair does need cutting though but I am resistant because I've not once found an hairdresser who does something perfect. Maybe I am just a major perfectionist and have to have things how I want them? Either way it's my hair and if it looks horrible I can't just take it off like an ugly skirt haahaa. How are you all? I am aware I don't always reply to your lovely comments but you 66 people are absolutely lovely :) <3 M L xoXox

Monday, 4 October 2010

I can't think of a title

I got woken up super early by my friend. Only now after like months has she decided to start planning her wedding. I know right? She makes the most noise in the entire world. I swear I was only thinking it but I ended up shouting "Just because you are awake does not mean everyone else is!" That was just before 7am. She brushed it off and I laughed when I got in the shower thinking it over.
We saw some absolutely stunning dresses and such but to be quite honest she isn't the type of girl to wear a dress. But oh my gosh it made me totally want to own a bridal shop! God the dresses are just... works of art. I loved them! We ended up having lunch out where a few other people joined us and the little restaurant type of thing was so cute and quint. It did Quorn food! I almost fell to the floor in shock at discovering that. I so have a new favourite place to eat out at now. I had a few fries and spicy chicken. Even though it wasn't a huge porton I asked for I left pretty happy and full.
Oh oh major shocker. Hold onto your seats... it didn't rain again! Like that is amazing here right now haha. It was sunny :O Told you it was shocking haha. So I have had a nice day in all. And a 2 hour afternoon/evening nap. I've not done that in a while so that was nice.
I think the rest of my day I am going to spend finishing things up and I will get on the exercise bike. October is definitely the month for me to start pushing myself.
Here are a few pictures to make you smile this Monday :)
This is a neighbours cat at my aunts though we've semi stolen it haha. We named it black lady.
This is my other aunties cat called Gizmo. She has the hugest black eyes when not sat on the window ledge.
They are my babies. How cute right? Patch and Snowey. Vey much the camera whores!
Snowey again. Who was it that wanted proof she was a camera whore??!
This was such an unusual pose from Patch. So adorable. He's a big fat softie and always needs loving! :D

Saturday, 2 October 2010

Blurry days

From Wednesday till well last night I wish I could have them days back. They was wasted doing complete rubbish. Well they have had some good points in them but there has been way too much bad to equally weigh it out. Good
  • I spent time with friends.
  • I did too much walking. Yes there is such a thing.
  • Eating was minimal.
  • .... I spent less time online?


  • I didn't have my phone charger.
  • It was freezing.
  • I was like just under 2lbs away from starting October in the 120's.
  • I couldn't get into my house.
  • My bank card got taken along with money/house keys by my mate.
  • I couldn't/can't access my bank account.
  • I had 4-5 hours sleep?

There are several other things but I don't want to turn October into a misery. It's freaking October. Oh gosh. Halloween soon :D I do love watching horror movies and being with my friends. Fun! This year is going insanely fast in my opinion. I'm attempting to blog but I have no motivation or anything remotely interesting to put in without it being depressing or something lol.

I will say though it is way too cold right now. Can't you tell Britain is heading into winter though to be honest I think we stay in winter mode for approximately 11 months of the year and the other month it is rain season haha xD

Hope you are all well.



Tuesday, 28 September 2010


I have figured out how to make staying at a friends with limited control on what I can surf on the net fun. I'll blog from the phone haha. My skin really doesn't like whatever washing powder/liquid my friend uses on his clothes. It's so irritating but I am way too cold to take the jacket off! Gosh I think we are skipping Autum and going straight into Winter. Or maybe it's just my wimpy butt... I don't think I am making this long since my hand/arm/wrist whatever it is called kills from earlier. To fill you in my friend tripped and dragged me down with him haha. Funny but oh so painful :'( That was karma for skipping college I just know it!! So yes ouchie! Monday turned out to be a good start to the week. Semi good. I unexpectedly had a blood test today. Only went in to book an appointment! It turned into a blood test/huge lecture from my doctor about eating right and exercising and sleeping enough which btw all made me laugh. Especially the latter since when he asked if I was often tired I was yawning my head off :P Baring in mind though I have never really gone in this year apart from blood tests. Oh and when I needed drugs when I broke my leg. So I have to go back on Thursday. Fml what a brillant start to the day that will be *rolls eyes* I did forget to weigh myself this morning. It was probably the rush to college *wink wink* and then realising I had left my keys at a friends so having to go back to his house and gah right? Hope you all had a good start to the week. Bella: I'm not bad no. Getting there :) Hope you're okay. Mich: I've not had them since... I can't even remember! So long but ketchup? I've done butter with the beans but not ketchup lol. More courses. I think more people will end up spending more time in college and uni than in a job! It takes ages to get good qualifications for a decent jobs. But at least you know now what you want to do :) M L xoXox

Saturday, 25 September 2010

Ooh a title?...

If I never comment on your blog don't worry. I do read them it is just I suck at replying on screen lol. I tend to just agree with what you write half the time. So yesterday was quite good. I broke my fast 2 and a half days into it. Tbh though it could of been worse than toast and a few crisps at my friends so I'm okay with it. Plus I am closer to breaking the 130's barrier. I swear that is the most annoying barrier made in terms of weight. At least for me anyway. And I bought a BlackBerry. I love it but not as much as the iPhone. I have a huge love affair with my iPhone. I'm so materialistic but who cares really? ;) If my computer takes another funny turn whilst I am writing this I am going to give up! Frustrating :@ Do you ever think you intimidate people with your career/education etc plans? Or are you more of the don't know what I am doing yet type of person? Most of my friends are the latter. Quite a few are in college and still not sure what they are going to do which I find bonkers since they are studying! I was having this convo with a friend through bbm last night. I'm nicknamed doc or nurse (since I am a healthcare assistant) because I know what I am doing careerwise and other friends call me brain. Yep brain. Did you laugh? Yeah it makes me laugh too haha. And she's nicknamed Para since she wants to be a paramedic. So I fall into the opposite catagory to most of the people I know. But they intimidate me with their personal lives. Y'know kids, partners etc etc. I couldn't imagine dragging (not literally lol) a kid through all them years all college and university. A guy yeah sure maybe, not marrying them or anything but I could do partners through uni. I dunno. I think I am just rambling now since I was up until 5:30am discussing the same things :L Right so I am off for a glass of juice and to read these lovely blogs whilst watching James Bond :) Haha Lola I forgive you I guess ;) (but a bit thank you to whoever was the 52nd follower. You saved me from insanity lol) On a total random note I am craving beans on toast. I have no idea why and I don't even know if I like it anymore o.O M L xoXox

Thursday, 23 September 2010


I have 50 followers! Do you know how irritating it was to have 49?? I really hate odd numbers. I don't know if I follow you all either so if I don't just tell me :) So... yet again I haven't updated. In my defence I wake up at 04:30am and spend until 4pm at college. The journey there and from takes the biscuit. It is actually faster to walk from the city centre to the college than get the bus. I know. I beat the bus o.O! It's a total rubbish course. I am going to talk to people tomorrow about switching it to the gcses like I am meant to be doing. No point doing child care since I don't want to work in a school and I'll hopefully be doing health and social care outside of college so just give me the gcses to do damn it! Yeah. So... yeah. That explains quite a bit. I do hate the fact that on the child care course there is no male students or tutors. I HATE it. At least if I transfer courses some tutors are male. I really can't get along with females. I don't know why but we have a love from them/hate from me relationship haha. Come to think of it I know a lot more guys than females considering I went to an all girls high school. Yesterday, no the day before... Tuesday I had to go to the hospital to do these English and Maths tests. My smart ass (exaggeration of course) scored a minimum of a B Gcse in both. I feel smart plus it means I get to go back next week to do my CRB check and stuff. Plus also get a start date for work (I think.) Oh yeah. Life is pretty good that way I guess. Or will be once I get this college sorted in the morning. I have a feeling I am forgetting a load of things. I just lost half of what I was reading because my computer decided to reload. Amazingly stupid this laptop is :@ Umm. Yes I was talking about math. Our 'maths' work is based on calories and weight and exercising and ED's. Um seriously? I have done maths for years and never once have we talked about any of that stuff. Weirdos. Plus the teacher got all the calorie stuff wrong. I was correcting half of it which was embarrassing. but come on even people who eat normal know there isn't 28 calories in an egg or 32 in a slice of bread o.O And she dresses like... I can't quite find the words for it. Leopard leggings and then army camoflague knee socks. Now I don't judge people on what they wear (outloud at least) but even I had to say WTF?! to my friend Caitlin! Sorry but not even Gok Wan could fix her :L Come to think of it I hope none of you guys wear anything like that or else I have just offended you "/ Did I mention she won't enroll me at college until I find out when I start this job and training if I do? That is so stupid. Just because it shows that the figures will drop that they give to the government. So I have no ID (kind of good since all my ID photos are rank. Seriously I'll have to put some of them on at some point!) and if there is a fire I'm not on the register. Boo huh? I don't think I should do the work in fairness if she's being a doylem like she is. But w/e. I need to stop complaining about college lol. Only been there 3 days and I have had enough! Well technically 2 since I was poorly today. I should probably stop writing because if anybody actually reads all of this they are going to be bored with me moaning ;) Typical Brit aye? Weights going down this week too. Not going to post stats I don't think. Maybe just the amount of pounds I lose instead. I'll start tomorrow maybe. Anyway. Goodnight :) M L xoXox

Saturday, 18 September 2010

College = Shopping = $$$ = :(

I start college on Monday. 09:30am until 16:30. The fact it takes me so long to get there isn't impressing me. In morning traffic and lame ass public transport I'll have to set off from my house at 07:00am, which makes Krissii annoyed and determined to have a fully charged phone and iPod. Oh and I am in the same class when I do a certain subject as a 'friend'. I say friend but we haven't seen each other in over a year even though we are meant to be best friends. Oh and I didn't even get her new number. I don't suppose I can grumble at that since I never gave her mine but she had the old one I still use. And what is with her husband-to-be texting me? Weird little man : I have an appointment on Tuesday at the hospital. Don't worry not ill, just a test and things to do an apprentinceship (of a sort) with them. I don't mind. I get my NVQ level 2 in Health and Social care, 37.5hrs work a week and time away from my life. If I end up doing it. If not I just have a packed schedule at college and more time to spent talking to you lovely people :D Still I think I would rather the wages ;) And I is getting a BlackBerry! I know. Overkill with having the iPhone buttttttttt... I want bbm haha. I am very greedy when it comes to material crap. All this comes when I say I am going to cut back on spending money. Such an obsession but at least it is healthy ;) Well for everyone but my purse but I can live with it. For now. So tomorrow I have to go shopping for a few new things for college especially a comfy pair of jeans, make up of course, thinking about dying my hair... dunno if to though of what colour IF I do. Suggestions? It has to look good though since I have to have pictures done on Monday and I am not having a weird bus pass or college pass. I 'accidently' of course lost my bus pass 4 times last eyar because they kept taking dodgy pictures. Finally got a good one lol and lets not talk about my NHS badge. I look okay but the colouring on it was shite. We all looked like Simpsons lmao! Gawd feels weird to be going back to school since I haven't been in a year. 18 months if you don't include college last year after hugh school. I am wondering how long it will take before somebody notices the ED though. I have had this trouble in both high school and college. Suprisingly always by a male teacher "/ Weird right? But it's almost a game in a sense hiding it and all that stuff. Mmm. I don't know if I am ready for that game again... So yes hope you are all enjoying your Saturday. I know I am since I am still in my pjs lol. And suggestions on the hair pleaseeeee! M L Take care xoXox